We have made it to Washington.
Lets just say, THIS IS THE RIGHT PLACE FOR US TO BE! Everything has fallen into place. People are so friendly. Our ward is just like our previous ward: Seasoned with the flavor of life and are so willing to help. I found a job and I start tomorrow. Ron loves his job and feels good about the direction it is going. We have a great apartment. Just the right size for just the right price. It makes me think of the apartment I lived in for a 1/3 of my mission: Fontana. Not the worst area, but not the best. Just in the middle.
I love that it is green everywhere. I love that there are still mountains around (Mt. Hood, Mt. Saint Helens is not too far away, you can see it on a clear day). I love the crisp, cool fall weather. I love that there are weirdos here.
Things I miss about Utah:
The red rock-even though I only went to Moab once, I love the red rock and I think it would look great next to the green.
MY FRIENDS- I was thinking that I should set up a skype date with my girlfriends and their kids. Because I can actually attend now (I am working swing shifts).
My family- I love being where we are now, but I miss being physically proximate to my family. I know this is going to be a lot harder to keep in touch and make the effort. I really took for granted how close they were. Now it is a 12 hour drive to get to them. Not too bad, all things considered, but still, 3.5 tanks of gas :(.
Those are just a couple of thoughts. Love to all.
There was once a man and a woman who fell in love... this is their story.
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Thursday, September 20, 2012
So Long, Farewell
Today I was visiting some of my favorite people on earth. It was such a delightful day. Friends that I haven't seen in a really long time, and ones that I will probably not see for another long time. I must say, one in particular apologized for not keeping better contact. I told her, "But you are not the type of friend I have to talk to everyday so I can fill fulfilled." I love that about this friend. (Shawna)
There were a couple of things I was retaught today. Here they are:
1) Really this life is about rediscovering who you are (an offspring of Deity), recognizing that it is really him who gives you all that you have, that happiness is dependent upon Obedience to Truth (almost always), and that if you have the pure love of Christ in your life, you are motivated to do anything it takes to get home.
2) I have decided that there is a reason I don't have a lot of super close friends. Really when it comes down to it, I don't like negativity in my life. So if you present that to me, I don't really want to be around you. Sorry for you, but not sorry for me. I CHOOSE happiness! I CHOOSE goodness! So, sorry if you don't choose the same things, because I feel sorrow for you. Your life could be so much happier. Light attracts light. Darkness attracts darkness. I choose light. And if you don't respond with a beacon, I usually just don't continue the association. Just saying.
3) If you don't know the whole situation, give or take a grain of salt with the situation. Don't throw down someone's experience just because it is not your own. If someone present's an idea, take it in, process it, and then place it appropriately.
and Lastly
4) If people communicate a clear signal to you that they don't know something, do not give them the service of having you pound something into their heads by repetition. This might work with a child, but adults are adults. If you have that much pride that you can't get over the fact that they didn't know something, or they didn't accept what you had to say, get the (________________) over it. There is probably a reason someone is doing what they are doing, and until you have been commanded to tell that person otherwise, leave it alone. Who are you to play the role of God to others? Seriously people, get over yourselves.
This is my last post from Utah.
I will write again when I get to Washington.
There were a couple of things I was retaught today. Here they are:
1) Really this life is about rediscovering who you are (an offspring of Deity), recognizing that it is really him who gives you all that you have, that happiness is dependent upon Obedience to Truth (almost always), and that if you have the pure love of Christ in your life, you are motivated to do anything it takes to get home.
2) I have decided that there is a reason I don't have a lot of super close friends. Really when it comes down to it, I don't like negativity in my life. So if you present that to me, I don't really want to be around you. Sorry for you, but not sorry for me. I CHOOSE happiness! I CHOOSE goodness! So, sorry if you don't choose the same things, because I feel sorrow for you. Your life could be so much happier. Light attracts light. Darkness attracts darkness. I choose light. And if you don't respond with a beacon, I usually just don't continue the association. Just saying.
3) If you don't know the whole situation, give or take a grain of salt with the situation. Don't throw down someone's experience just because it is not your own. If someone present's an idea, take it in, process it, and then place it appropriately.
and Lastly
4) If people communicate a clear signal to you that they don't know something, do not give them the service of having you pound something into their heads by repetition. This might work with a child, but adults are adults. If you have that much pride that you can't get over the fact that they didn't know something, or they didn't accept what you had to say, get the (________________) over it. There is probably a reason someone is doing what they are doing, and until you have been commanded to tell that person otherwise, leave it alone. Who are you to play the role of God to others? Seriously people, get over yourselves.
This is my last post from Utah.
I will write again when I get to Washington.
Monday, August 13, 2012
So about 2 months ago, Ron and I were driving to Costco to get some gas and then we were heading
home. I had asked him how job hunting was going and he said, “Same old, Same old.” Ron hadn’t had a
job from the end of January to that point. He had done some contract work, but not a steady job. So out
of my mouth comes this comment, “Maybe it’s a sign we aren’t supposed to be here!” Ron looked at me
and said, “Maybe. Where would we move to?”
Me: “Portland, or somewhere else.”
Ron: “How would we do that though?” (Keep in mind, last August when we went on a second
honeymoon to Portland, on our drive back I felt like it was time to leave Provo. We seriously considered
Portland, but we wouldn’t have residency and Ron was still in school at Provo College.)
Me: “Well we could see everything and move there. I don’t know we could stay with the Temperini’s
maybe and see what we could do.”
Ron chewed on that for a little while and kept asking questions and I kept playing Devil’s advocate and
then we went up to Ron’s sister’s house and were like, “What do you guys think?” Also keep in mind,
this sister has been married 10 years and has moved 10 times. Pretty much knows how painful moving
really can be and unless it is needful, that you should just stay in one place.
That was 2 months ago.
Since then, we have sold two of our bookshelves, a dresser, and a pink recliner. That is pretty awesome
all things considered. We have had one DI trip already and will probably be doing another. When I first
spoke with a good friend about it, she was really cautious. She is like a second mother to me and she
voiced realistic concerns. But it is the same feeling that I have had before, when I decided to serve
a mission, and when I decided to marry my best friend. Peace, peace, peace. Goodness and almost
giddiness. Mind you, there are still moments when I am like, ummmm, this is a little scary. Moving
yourself about 800 miles away from the place you have called home the last 9 years, yeah. That is a little
bit to take in. But there is so much that is coming that I can barely take it in.
I know there are challenges ahead, especially because it is a major life change, but there is so much to
be said for the adventure we are about to embark.
The official journey begins November 1st (our contract is up on Halloween) but we might be starting it
sooner. All things in there time.
But here is what I look forward to:
home. I had asked him how job hunting was going and he said, “Same old, Same old.” Ron hadn’t had a
job from the end of January to that point. He had done some contract work, but not a steady job. So out
of my mouth comes this comment, “Maybe it’s a sign we aren’t supposed to be here!” Ron looked at me
and said, “Maybe. Where would we move to?”
Me: “Portland, or somewhere else.”
Ron: “How would we do that though?” (Keep in mind, last August when we went on a second
honeymoon to Portland, on our drive back I felt like it was time to leave Provo. We seriously considered
Portland, but we wouldn’t have residency and Ron was still in school at Provo College.)
Me: “Well we could see everything and move there. I don’t know we could stay with the Temperini’s
maybe and see what we could do.”
Ron chewed on that for a little while and kept asking questions and I kept playing Devil’s advocate and
then we went up to Ron’s sister’s house and were like, “What do you guys think?” Also keep in mind,
this sister has been married 10 years and has moved 10 times. Pretty much knows how painful moving
really can be and unless it is needful, that you should just stay in one place.
That was 2 months ago.
Since then, we have sold two of our bookshelves, a dresser, and a pink recliner. That is pretty awesome
all things considered. We have had one DI trip already and will probably be doing another. When I first
spoke with a good friend about it, she was really cautious. She is like a second mother to me and she
voiced realistic concerns. But it is the same feeling that I have had before, when I decided to serve
a mission, and when I decided to marry my best friend. Peace, peace, peace. Goodness and almost
giddiness. Mind you, there are still moments when I am like, ummmm, this is a little scary. Moving
yourself about 800 miles away from the place you have called home the last 9 years, yeah. That is a little
bit to take in. But there is so much that is coming that I can barely take it in.
I know there are challenges ahead, especially because it is a major life change, but there is so much to
be said for the adventure we are about to embark.
The official journey begins November 1st (our contract is up on Halloween) but we might be starting it
sooner. All things in there time.
But here is what I look forward to:
I can officially say it
So, remember that post where I talked about loving my husband....it still applies.
I can finally put it out there for the public to see.
WE ARE MOVING!!!!!!!
To the beautiful area of Portland/Vancouver.
I am pretty excited for the fact that we are moving from Utah. It has been over 4 months of pondering, thinking, researching, praying, fasting, all of this list multiple times.....to decide it is the thing that Ron and I are needing to do. He found an AMAZING program at Clark College and he will be attending there in January. He still will be doing online classes with UVU so that he can get those GE classes out of the way, but I am so excited.
We are truly being blessed for this move and even though I have been SUPER HESITANT at things going too fast, I feel like everything is working out for the best.
We are excited for this adventure, and it will be an amazing thing!
-Will you keep you updated on how everything goes in the next couple of weeks.
Hannah
I can finally put it out there for the public to see.
WE ARE MOVING!!!!!!!
To the beautiful area of Portland/Vancouver.
I am pretty excited for the fact that we are moving from Utah. It has been over 4 months of pondering, thinking, researching, praying, fasting, all of this list multiple times.....to decide it is the thing that Ron and I are needing to do. He found an AMAZING program at Clark College and he will be attending there in January. He still will be doing online classes with UVU so that he can get those GE classes out of the way, but I am so excited.
We are truly being blessed for this move and even though I have been SUPER HESITANT at things going too fast, I feel like everything is working out for the best.
We are excited for this adventure, and it will be an amazing thing!
-Will you keep you updated on how everything goes in the next couple of weeks.
Hannah
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Knowing you love your husband
Is when you are blogging while your husband is using his 48 hours of XBOX live to hang out with his high school friends. Playing Halo, of all the games he could play.
Knowing you love your husband when you are willing to spend 6 weeks without him.
Couple of insights the last couple of days:
- One, when you don't have children and most of the people around you do and you don't know what to blog about because your life is just you and your husband and work. Family every once in a while, but not having the same thing to blog about as most of the world (well, the blogging world that I follow).
- Promises are promises and they can be trusted when they are from a perfect person, even when you don't really want to trust them because it literally scares you to death (spiritually speaking).
- Feeling like the weight of the world is on your shoulders because your life is about to change so drastically you have no idea what to expect. Oh wait, try that being the last 5.5 years of my life.
and last but certainly not least:
- When you have learned the art of sarcasm and those around understand it. Because you were being truly ironic, and not rude to people, but just being literally opposite of all of what you expect.
Welcome to my world.
Knowing you love your husband when you are willing to spend 6 weeks without him.
Couple of insights the last couple of days:
- One, when you don't have children and most of the people around you do and you don't know what to blog about because your life is just you and your husband and work. Family every once in a while, but not having the same thing to blog about as most of the world (well, the blogging world that I follow).
- Promises are promises and they can be trusted when they are from a perfect person, even when you don't really want to trust them because it literally scares you to death (spiritually speaking).
- Feeling like the weight of the world is on your shoulders because your life is about to change so drastically you have no idea what to expect. Oh wait, try that being the last 5.5 years of my life.
and last but certainly not least:
- When you have learned the art of sarcasm and those around understand it. Because you were being truly ironic, and not rude to people, but just being literally opposite of all of what you expect.
Welcome to my world.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
"One is not like the others" Response.
My sister recently posted a pretty personal post and I wanted to write much more in my comment than I did because there wasn't enough space.
So I thought I would write it here.
This is what I started out with:
I don't think the question really is, "when will I begin to be loved for who I am?" Because there are already many people who love you for exactly who you are. I think the question behind the question you posted was, "When will the person who is to be my eternal companion come along and love me for who I really am?" For that, there is no answer that any one can give that will suffice the longing and yearning that you feel, other than God himself. Love the Lord, love yourself, and live your plan to its fullest. --->this is what I ended up leaving, but here are the rest of my thoughts.
So many times we want something that is good and righteous, and full out natural, but we want it now and we think we know best. Sometimes the "Great Being" gives it to us, but most of the time he doesn't. Then we start to become hurt and angry that we didn't get it when we thought we were ready, and this leads to resentment and pride. For example, I have many friends that want to be married or pregnant (most married, but some single want both marriage and babies). And it is very interesting to see how each reacts to it. The ones that have humbled themselves and have started to see things as they really are, those are ones that eventually get what they want. Most of the times it is years later, but they do get what they want. The ones that turn resentful and angry and pretty much turn their backs on the "Great Being" get their temporary reward, but years later are at a completely different spot than those of their counterparts.
I am not saying it is "bad" to have those feelings, it is what you do with them. It is hard, but it is much better in the end to humble ourselves and live life to its fullest now. I feel a lot of peace since I stopped worrying about when Ron and I would have children. They will come in their own time. It was the same way with getting married. I had decided about 6 months after my mission that I was okay with being single the rest of this mortal period, but I had a witness that would not be the case. I then almost married someone and even though it was the hardest thing to break up with that man, it was the greatest blessing also. Yeah, I was pretty angry and numb for about 6 or so months, especially because we still lived near each other, but then I had another witness that there was nothing wrong with me or that man, it just was no longer the 'right' thing for us to pursue an eternal relationship. That is when the healing started and I started living my life fully again. I got involved in tons of service and volunteering. I got outside of myself and I left it in the "Great Being's" hands. It was over a year later that I started dating my husband. Yes, I went on dates with other guys between these two serious relationships, and I really got to be good friends with a lot of guys. But it wasn't the "Great Being's" time for me to have an eternal relationship. In the end, I got what I wanted and I love my husband.
In essence, Love God, love ourselves and live life to our fullest. We are the ones who stop ourselves from doing that. It is a process and I don't blame anyone for questioning. However, we would do everyone a favor, including ourselves, to become trusting and submitting sooner rather than later. Because in the end we just hurt ourselves and those around others when we don't.
So I thought I would write it here.
This is what I started out with:
I don't think the question really is, "when will I begin to be loved for who I am?" Because there are already many people who love you for exactly who you are. I think the question behind the question you posted was, "When will the person who is to be my eternal companion come along and love me for who I really am?" For that, there is no answer that any one can give that will suffice the longing and yearning that you feel, other than God himself. Love the Lord, love yourself, and live your plan to its fullest. --->this is what I ended up leaving, but here are the rest of my thoughts.
So many times we want something that is good and righteous, and full out natural, but we want it now and we think we know best. Sometimes the "Great Being" gives it to us, but most of the time he doesn't. Then we start to become hurt and angry that we didn't get it when we thought we were ready, and this leads to resentment and pride. For example, I have many friends that want to be married or pregnant (most married, but some single want both marriage and babies). And it is very interesting to see how each reacts to it. The ones that have humbled themselves and have started to see things as they really are, those are ones that eventually get what they want. Most of the times it is years later, but they do get what they want. The ones that turn resentful and angry and pretty much turn their backs on the "Great Being" get their temporary reward, but years later are at a completely different spot than those of their counterparts.
I am not saying it is "bad" to have those feelings, it is what you do with them. It is hard, but it is much better in the end to humble ourselves and live life to its fullest now. I feel a lot of peace since I stopped worrying about when Ron and I would have children. They will come in their own time. It was the same way with getting married. I had decided about 6 months after my mission that I was okay with being single the rest of this mortal period, but I had a witness that would not be the case. I then almost married someone and even though it was the hardest thing to break up with that man, it was the greatest blessing also. Yeah, I was pretty angry and numb for about 6 or so months, especially because we still lived near each other, but then I had another witness that there was nothing wrong with me or that man, it just was no longer the 'right' thing for us to pursue an eternal relationship. That is when the healing started and I started living my life fully again. I got involved in tons of service and volunteering. I got outside of myself and I left it in the "Great Being's" hands. It was over a year later that I started dating my husband. Yes, I went on dates with other guys between these two serious relationships, and I really got to be good friends with a lot of guys. But it wasn't the "Great Being's" time for me to have an eternal relationship. In the end, I got what I wanted and I love my husband.
In essence, Love God, love ourselves and live life to our fullest. We are the ones who stop ourselves from doing that. It is a process and I don't blame anyone for questioning. However, we would do everyone a favor, including ourselves, to become trusting and submitting sooner rather than later. Because in the end we just hurt ourselves and those around others when we don't.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Montage
So,
Pretty much here is the rest of the story.
The point I was trying to make in the previous post, which did NOT happen, was that forgiveness is really important in our lives. And who a better person to practice on than God!
He doesn't NEED our forgiveness because he hasn't wronged us, but often times when our dreams are shattered to become better than what we had in store, we feel wronged and we have to practice forgiving Him and ourselves.
Second thought: Some people are just not ready for what they most want. I think about when I wanted to be married and I just wasn't as ready as I thought I was, until I was really ready and then I didn't worry about it. I got married 6 months later to my amazing man, Ron!
Third thought: It is okay to grieve the loss of dreams. It is about progression and taking our time on the path. Some people have their dreams come to pass, but there will be roadblocks later on and it might be even more painful than having had it earlier.
Last thought: Our lives have purpose and our lives are dependent upon Trust in something greater. I believe it is because of God, his son, Jesus Christ and a hope of eternal life. Some people think differently.
Those were the rest of my thoughts from Saturday. It just took a while to write it down here.
-Hannah
Pretty much here is the rest of the story.
The point I was trying to make in the previous post, which did NOT happen, was that forgiveness is really important in our lives. And who a better person to practice on than God!
He doesn't NEED our forgiveness because he hasn't wronged us, but often times when our dreams are shattered to become better than what we had in store, we feel wronged and we have to practice forgiving Him and ourselves.
Second thought: Some people are just not ready for what they most want. I think about when I wanted to be married and I just wasn't as ready as I thought I was, until I was really ready and then I didn't worry about it. I got married 6 months later to my amazing man, Ron!
Third thought: It is okay to grieve the loss of dreams. It is about progression and taking our time on the path. Some people have their dreams come to pass, but there will be roadblocks later on and it might be even more painful than having had it earlier.
Last thought: Our lives have purpose and our lives are dependent upon Trust in something greater. I believe it is because of God, his son, Jesus Christ and a hope of eternal life. Some people think differently.
Those were the rest of my thoughts from Saturday. It just took a while to write it down here.
-Hannah
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