I have been blessed ten fold the last couple of days. Ron has been sick with a head cold (super cute I would say, even though he has felt miserable) and I have been playing doctor to get him better. We both don't get sick that often, but when we do, it feels like we get hit hard. That was the side note.
Back to my subject: Where we are all at. My incredible sister-in-law (shout out to my in-laws. I LOVE THEM, and could not be more blessed to know such good people) wrote a post recently describing her thoughts on homosexuality and how it has been hard for her to understand how it works while being Latter-day Saint (she is very happily married and attracted to her husband). In reading her post, I kind of had verbal vomit: the kind of vomit that we all have, but usually don't say because it is neither the time nor place.
So I made the purge, 3 drafts worth. And I still texted her and told her how sorry I was to come off so pious. She laughed and reassured me it wasn't the end of the world.
Having written those thoughts, while along with a GREAT conversation with my Papa, and then yesterday having frozen yogurt with my best friend's mom (who is also an amazing example to me), I have come to a couple of life questions:
First: Who am I?
Second: What am I doing to become who I already am?
Third: What is my real purpose and goal here?
These are questions everyone asks, but on occasion they call for re-evaluation, and I so happen to be in a place to do that.
So, what do you all think about these questions? Who are you all, the people who read this blog? What do you feel like you are doing to achieve who you want to be? And why does it matter?
-Hannah
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Being a "one"....
* Disclaimer: No pics today, but there is a link to the hospital that we are delivering at. Go look around.
So today I started the weekly violation appointments that are all to common (actually necessary) for pregnant women. I was nervous and excited all at the same time. And I wanted to report on what has been happening for the last couple of weeks....since I tend to post my thoughts way too often.
I have hung out at my Visiting Teacher's house twice (love seeing how to be a mother to 4 children under the age of 9). I am very impressed with how it works: preparing lunch, getting three of the four in the 'Burban, dropping one off at afternoon kindergarten and then the 3rd youngest off at preschool. Then hanging for a couple of hours, asking my million questions that I tend to ask (warning: one of my good friend's mom said I should go into journalism and become the next Barbara Walters because I was so good at asking such personal questions. I secretly was very insecure about this and almost hated it, but since I have learned tact and privacy, I think I could actually be a decent reporter.... now it's just learning how to write...hahahahah). Next we pick up all three of the kids from their respected schools and come home and have a snack. It is kind of fun actually. I am grateful that I don't have to do this for a while, and that it is something you grow into. Otherwise, I might swear off this motherhood thing.
I had one or two appointments at the midwife's and got to meet one of the other midwifes. She seems really nice like the one I have been seeing my whole pregnancy. Very thorough with my questions and patient in explaining concerns I have. I did spot once in the this time period and called the after hours service because it was very unusual. Luckily, everything is totally normal, just a little surprised. I think it is a tale sign of things to come.
Ron and I took our hospital tour.... Really put into perspective that, yes, even though I have been feeling the alien for the past 4 or so months, WE ARE REALLY HAVING A BABY! Freak me out. That was really fun to visit with Ron. I am so grateful for a husband who is loving and patient with me and who is just as excited to have a child....sometimes even more prepared than I am.
Thinking, thinking.......Oh, it was Mother's Day and that was fun. We had a bbq with the Temperinis and loved it. The Sister missionaries were there also. Fun to talk about the mission. I fear I revealed a little bit more than I should have. Oops. MISS THE MISSION DAYS, especially cool peps like Papa and Mama Johnson, the Kaisers, and the Englands. Good people, good times.
As to the title of this post, Being a "one". Today I measured at a one. Now I know that most women stay at a one or two or even a three for a couple of weeks, but it made me really excited because that means, I am going to get bigger and I am going to have this baby soon. Can you tell I am a little antsy to get this over with? I just want to not be big any more and I want to meet the person who stretches pretty much all the time now.
Highlights coming up: I have a baby shower on Thursday. Hopeful to finish a quilt before this little man comes. Really want to go swimming. Oh, and I am now almost 36 and a half weeks. Just a couple of more weeks and I will have an infant. Crazy.
Loves....Nah
So today I started the weekly violation appointments that are all to common (actually necessary) for pregnant women. I was nervous and excited all at the same time. And I wanted to report on what has been happening for the last couple of weeks....since I tend to post my thoughts way too often.
I have hung out at my Visiting Teacher's house twice (love seeing how to be a mother to 4 children under the age of 9). I am very impressed with how it works: preparing lunch, getting three of the four in the 'Burban, dropping one off at afternoon kindergarten and then the 3rd youngest off at preschool. Then hanging for a couple of hours, asking my million questions that I tend to ask (warning: one of my good friend's mom said I should go into journalism and become the next Barbara Walters because I was so good at asking such personal questions. I secretly was very insecure about this and almost hated it, but since I have learned tact and privacy, I think I could actually be a decent reporter.... now it's just learning how to write...hahahahah). Next we pick up all three of the kids from their respected schools and come home and have a snack. It is kind of fun actually. I am grateful that I don't have to do this for a while, and that it is something you grow into. Otherwise, I might swear off this motherhood thing.
I had one or two appointments at the midwife's and got to meet one of the other midwifes. She seems really nice like the one I have been seeing my whole pregnancy. Very thorough with my questions and patient in explaining concerns I have. I did spot once in the this time period and called the after hours service because it was very unusual. Luckily, everything is totally normal, just a little surprised. I think it is a tale sign of things to come.
Ron and I took our hospital tour.... Really put into perspective that, yes, even though I have been feeling the alien for the past 4 or so months, WE ARE REALLY HAVING A BABY! Freak me out. That was really fun to visit with Ron. I am so grateful for a husband who is loving and patient with me and who is just as excited to have a child....sometimes even more prepared than I am.
Thinking, thinking.......Oh, it was Mother's Day and that was fun. We had a bbq with the Temperinis and loved it. The Sister missionaries were there also. Fun to talk about the mission. I fear I revealed a little bit more than I should have. Oops. MISS THE MISSION DAYS, especially cool peps like Papa and Mama Johnson, the Kaisers, and the Englands. Good people, good times.
As to the title of this post, Being a "one". Today I measured at a one. Now I know that most women stay at a one or two or even a three for a couple of weeks, but it made me really excited because that means, I am going to get bigger and I am going to have this baby soon. Can you tell I am a little antsy to get this over with? I just want to not be big any more and I want to meet the person who stretches pretty much all the time now.
Highlights coming up: I have a baby shower on Thursday. Hopeful to finish a quilt before this little man comes. Really want to go swimming. Oh, and I am now almost 36 and a half weeks. Just a couple of more weeks and I will have an infant. Crazy.
Loves....Nah
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
So yeah, that blog thing right?
In our last post, I wrote that people update their blogs for many reasons. I thought I would update again and tell everyone that we do live....even if it means I get to stay home while Ron works. I blessing I will NEVER stop being grateful for.
Here is the latest prego pic:
We also went on a date to the Ridgefield Wildlife Refuge. It was a beautiful typical Northwest day, but we actually had some sun shine on us.
It has been a fun couple of weeks. I am starting to have appointments every 2 weeks for the little person inside. He lets me know he is awake often and I am starting to get to that point where I am uncomfortable a lot of the time. 6.5 weeks until his due date. Crazy how soon it will be.
Loving the time with just me and Ron....He is just the right fit for me and I am so grateful for that. We are crazy together.
Here is the latest prego pic:
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| Sorry about the hair....it had been a long day. |
We also went on a date to the Ridgefield Wildlife Refuge. It was a beautiful typical Northwest day, but we actually had some sun shine on us.
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| Can you find me? |
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| Literally right outside our car window. |
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| One of the ugliest creatures on earth.....a nuphrone? Ron knows and isn't here to correct me. |
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| The life of just enjoying the grass and relaxing.... |
It has been a fun couple of weeks. I am starting to have appointments every 2 weeks for the little person inside. He lets me know he is awake often and I am starting to get to that point where I am uncomfortable a lot of the time. 6.5 weeks until his due date. Crazy how soon it will be.
Loving the time with just me and Ron....He is just the right fit for me and I am so grateful for that. We are crazy together.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
We are still here!
I can see why people don't update their blogs often, unless for a specific reason: keeping a 'scrapbook', money, information/education. There are lots of reasons I suppose.
Ron really likes to write, but has to be inspired. I hate to write, but I have been warned that I need to.
So here is how we are doing:
I am having a baby. I know we announced it on Facebook, but I don't think we have put any of our pictures up. This is at 20ish weeks. Ron loves me pregnant, for many different reasons (some literally, some facetiously).
We went out to Astoria, OR for a date. We visited a shipwreck.
We loved it. It was really cold. But we bought a new camera and had fun exploring.
And most recently, we had a baby shower for little Baby Beck, hosted by the AMAZING DEE! Love her.
So that is a little bit more of what is going on in our lives.
P.s. I am reading this book
Everyone should read it.
At least I say so.
Ron really likes to write, but has to be inspired. I hate to write, but I have been warned that I need to.
So here is how we are doing:
We went out to Astoria, OR for a date. We visited a shipwreck.
We loved it. It was really cold. But we bought a new camera and had fun exploring.
And most recently, we had a baby shower for little Baby Beck, hosted by the AMAZING DEE! Love her.
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| Cute little clothes for a our little boy! So exciting. |
So that is a little bit more of what is going on in our lives.
P.s. I am reading this book
At least I say so.
Monday, January 21, 2013
Who is He In Yonder Stall?
I just finished watching a TV show that made a very strong impact on me. I won't disclose the name of the show for the fact that there is a lot of filth in the show, and I have resolved not to watch it any more (it's second season just ended and won't start up until this September----after which I will have had a baby and we will have just moved :)
However, I do want to share some thoughts from finishing the second season.
1) Love is the most powerful emotion that I have ever felt. I have felt lots of anger in my life, but love trumps it all. I wept last night at the side of my husband for the fact that I love him more than words can ever express.
2) Deep connection is what part of what the marriage covenant is based on. Ron and I talked about the need to keep connected, and I am in AWE at home many people never connect on the deepest level of themselves, let alone share it with someone. I am grateful to a husband who is aware of my "sensitivities" and is gentle with them.
3) The more I experience Mortality, the more I come to understand the depth of the Atonement (Sacrifice) of Jesus Christ. That is why I entitled this post "Who is He in Yonder Stall?". There is a man, Jordan Kimball Fowers who taught me just the beginning of the Sacrifice and love of the Savior. When he passed away, I was privileged to attend his funeral and I wept at one of the songs the Men's Chorus sang.
http://youtu.be/uhJ0WeVTZBY
Here are the lyrics:
"Who is he in yonder stall?
At who's feet the shepherds fall?
'Tis the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, Oh King of Glory.
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all.
Who is he who stands and weeps
At the grave where Lazarus sleeps?
'Tis the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, the King of Glory.
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all.
Who is he in Calvary's Thrones
Asks for blessings on his fold
'Tis the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, the King of Glory.
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all.
Who is He, who from the grave,
Comes to seek and help and save
It is the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, the King of Glory
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all. "
I never listen to this recording without literally weeping. I love Him, I love all that He has done for me. I am grateful to my Father for giving Him to us.
Words fail me, but that is as much as I can write.
I am excited to see them one day. "Soon" relatively speaking. I wouldn't want to see them prematurely, but I am excited to see them. Along with lots of other people.
The Gospel of Jesus Christ is restored, and the ultimate blessings that God wants to give his children are here. I love Him for his gratitude in giving such gifts and making them available today.
-Hannah
However, I do want to share some thoughts from finishing the second season.
1) Love is the most powerful emotion that I have ever felt. I have felt lots of anger in my life, but love trumps it all. I wept last night at the side of my husband for the fact that I love him more than words can ever express.
2) Deep connection is what part of what the marriage covenant is based on. Ron and I talked about the need to keep connected, and I am in AWE at home many people never connect on the deepest level of themselves, let alone share it with someone. I am grateful to a husband who is aware of my "sensitivities" and is gentle with them.
3) The more I experience Mortality, the more I come to understand the depth of the Atonement (Sacrifice) of Jesus Christ. That is why I entitled this post "Who is He in Yonder Stall?". There is a man, Jordan Kimball Fowers who taught me just the beginning of the Sacrifice and love of the Savior. When he passed away, I was privileged to attend his funeral and I wept at one of the songs the Men's Chorus sang.
http://youtu.be/uhJ0WeVTZBY
Here are the lyrics:
"Who is he in yonder stall?
At who's feet the shepherds fall?
'Tis the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, Oh King of Glory.
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all.
Who is he who stands and weeps
At the grave where Lazarus sleeps?
'Tis the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, the King of Glory.
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all.
Who is he in Calvary's Thrones
Asks for blessings on his fold
'Tis the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, the King of Glory.
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all.
Who is He, who from the grave,
Comes to seek and help and save
It is the Lord, Oh wondrous story
'Tis the Lord, the King of Glory
At his feet we humbly fall
Crown Him, Crown Him Lord of all. "
I never listen to this recording without literally weeping. I love Him, I love all that He has done for me. I am grateful to my Father for giving Him to us.
Words fail me, but that is as much as I can write.
I am excited to see them one day. "Soon" relatively speaking. I wouldn't want to see them prematurely, but I am excited to see them. Along with lots of other people.
The Gospel of Jesus Christ is restored, and the ultimate blessings that God wants to give his children are here. I love Him for his gratitude in giving such gifts and making them available today.
-Hannah
Monday, January 14, 2013
Life is Weird...
(First of all, I want to clarify that everyone's life experiences are different and the following is just a generalization of my personal experiences)
Life is weird...
As children we so much ahead of us. We can, for the most part, do anything we want and be anyone we want to be. Even when we are just playing around we dream and play as Doctors, Lawyers, Superheroes, etc. We spend those first 5 years learning how to do the basics, then spend the next 10-15 years figuring out who we are. We go through high school and go through the most influential period of our lives to that point. Every little detail about our lives seems to matter and not getting what we want is devastating.
It isn't until after high school (Generally speaking) that we find out that our small and petty problems are nothing compared to many many others in the world who go through much harder trials. It is usually at this point that we start to understand life for the first time. We are not completely there yet, but we are starting to get it. We finally start to leave our selfish little world of our mind and explore the idea that others have just as many, if not more, problems then we do. Keep in mind that this does not make our problems disappear but it does help make them lighter.
After we finally start to come into our own and accept ourselves we finally are able to accept another for who they are and find that we, in fact, where never whole without them; thus, we get married. Since this is really as far as I have traveled on the road of life I can't really say what the future holds. What I can say is that marriage brings on all sorts of new challenges and joys.
Ultimately, despite what experiences we have throughout our life we always, at any given time, think that we know about what it has to offer, and although I contradict myself because I too am in a stage of life as I say this; we never truly know what life has in store for us. It is full of ups and downs. It turns and meanders unpredictably, and although we can't predict the road we take; we can always determine where we are going.
I'm sure you're wondering, "Where did that come from?" I think it mostly came from the ever present changes that Hannah and I have experienced in our marriage. In our year and a half of being married we have moved 4 times and are contemplating moving again. So i guess I am just saying life is weird and you just cant predict it. :)
-Ron
Life is weird...
As children we so much ahead of us. We can, for the most part, do anything we want and be anyone we want to be. Even when we are just playing around we dream and play as Doctors, Lawyers, Superheroes, etc. We spend those first 5 years learning how to do the basics, then spend the next 10-15 years figuring out who we are. We go through high school and go through the most influential period of our lives to that point. Every little detail about our lives seems to matter and not getting what we want is devastating.
It isn't until after high school (Generally speaking) that we find out that our small and petty problems are nothing compared to many many others in the world who go through much harder trials. It is usually at this point that we start to understand life for the first time. We are not completely there yet, but we are starting to get it. We finally start to leave our selfish little world of our mind and explore the idea that others have just as many, if not more, problems then we do. Keep in mind that this does not make our problems disappear but it does help make them lighter.
After we finally start to come into our own and accept ourselves we finally are able to accept another for who they are and find that we, in fact, where never whole without them; thus, we get married. Since this is really as far as I have traveled on the road of life I can't really say what the future holds. What I can say is that marriage brings on all sorts of new challenges and joys.
Ultimately, despite what experiences we have throughout our life we always, at any given time, think that we know about what it has to offer, and although I contradict myself because I too am in a stage of life as I say this; we never truly know what life has in store for us. It is full of ups and downs. It turns and meanders unpredictably, and although we can't predict the road we take; we can always determine where we are going.
I'm sure you're wondering, "Where did that come from?" I think it mostly came from the ever present changes that Hannah and I have experienced in our marriage. In our year and a half of being married we have moved 4 times and are contemplating moving again. So i guess I am just saying life is weird and you just cant predict it. :)
-Ron
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Great Christmas! But no pictures...
So we had a great Christmas! I admit that this year was a tad bit strange because this was the first year that I did not fly back to Oklahoma. It was Hannah and I's first Christmas on our own..... And we didn't have a Camera... : (
Although we were not with my family back in Oklahoma, we were with our surrogate family here in Oregon, the Temperinis. I LOVE them! We had a great time with some great people. Curt and Kiley came over with their 2 children Cassey(Cubby) and Jaxon. They are some of the cutest little stinkers I have ever seen and although Cubby pretty much hates me (not really, she just gives me evil stares) I loved having them around, especially Jaxon's cute little smile.
One thing that I realized this year was how grateful I am for the family I have all around me. Hannah and I just recently moved out to the northwest and really didn't know very many people, but the few people we did know have been indispensable. If it were not for the Temperinis we would not have had a place to stay and would not have found the home we have today. If it were not for Tom Gibbons I would not have the job I have and would not be able to afford anything, let alone the new place we are renting. Also, with Hannah being pregnant we have a FLOOD of people saying how they have toys, car seats, swings, cribs, cloths, and almost everything we would need for a baby that they will give to us. We are so lucky and blessed! I know that it is no longer Thanksgiving, but I am really grateful for all the help and love we have received.
Once again, we don't have a working camera, but as soon as we do we will have pictures :)
Although we were not with my family back in Oklahoma, we were with our surrogate family here in Oregon, the Temperinis. I LOVE them! We had a great time with some great people. Curt and Kiley came over with their 2 children Cassey(Cubby) and Jaxon. They are some of the cutest little stinkers I have ever seen and although Cubby pretty much hates me (not really, she just gives me evil stares) I loved having them around, especially Jaxon's cute little smile.
One thing that I realized this year was how grateful I am for the family I have all around me. Hannah and I just recently moved out to the northwest and really didn't know very many people, but the few people we did know have been indispensable. If it were not for the Temperinis we would not have had a place to stay and would not have found the home we have today. If it were not for Tom Gibbons I would not have the job I have and would not be able to afford anything, let alone the new place we are renting. Also, with Hannah being pregnant we have a FLOOD of people saying how they have toys, car seats, swings, cribs, cloths, and almost everything we would need for a baby that they will give to us. We are so lucky and blessed! I know that it is no longer Thanksgiving, but I am really grateful for all the help and love we have received.
Once again, we don't have a working camera, but as soon as we do we will have pictures :)
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