My dear blog,
I have neglected you, I am very sorry. I got a full time job that consumes my afternoons and evenings, and when I get the most inspiration it is at random times when I am not able to write. I was complimenting a friend of mine (Kira) on her blog one day. She stated that she wrote when she felt like she had something to write about. I guess that I am afraid sometimes to express what I really think because it might actually be okay and I won't be judged. I at least hope so.
SO here is why I am blogging so early in the morning (I have a slight case of insomnia). I was at work this afternoon when I received a text from my husband. He was reminding me of a promise we made to each other. It was super cute, but unexpected. When I came home for my dinner break I asked him to elaborate on his text. Without becoming too personal on a medium that is intended to be personal without crossing particular boundaries, I care to express one thought: Neil L. Andersen. If you are LDS and watched the Saturday Afternoon session of General Conference 2011, you will get my drift. If not, go look. It will be well worth your time.
I was impressed by many things that he said. However there were a couple of different things that stood out to me. Having children is important, if you can have them, try to have them. If that is not something in store for you, TRUST in Heavenly Father's plan for you and do what you can to experience mortality as it should be experienced. Last but not least, STOP JUDGING!!!!!!!!! You have no idea what others are going through and quite frankly, IT IS NONE OF ANYONE'S BUSINESS! That is what I got from his talk.
I know that trusting part is much easier stated than done. The older I get, the more I realize that EVERYTHING is an experience of faith. Dating, getting married, starting a family, experiencing family as it comes, experiencing the passing of a loved one, passing on ourselves.
Each one of the previous described states of expressing faith are currently affecting my life. I have incredible friends who are single, and wish to be married. I have recently married my best friend. I have friends who have started families. I have friends that have tried for years and have not been blessed with those cherished desires. I have friends that are experiencing family as it comes. and I have friends that are experiencing the passing of a loved one, and subsequently have had friends pass on. Each time I speak with those still here, I am impressed and reminded of the love of a Heavenly Father who is truly perfect and expects(HOPES) his children will trust (have FAITH in) Him and love (Charity) him despite the "unfairness" of mortality.
My dear friends that have read this post: I wish to express one thing, (and this is to myself also). Please try, with as little amount as you are possibly able to bear, to trust a perfect being who knows what he is doing and is very aware of who you are. He knows it is hard and he knows that there are going to be times where we are on the brink of loosing it, but he asks us to just try. So for his sake and mine (writing to my future self and others) try to believe him. Try to trust his plan for you. and please TRUST YOURSELF.
-Much love,
Hannah
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Your Elder Anderson comment reminds me of a funny story. Alanna was at a RS activity and the people at her table were talking about FHE stuff. A girl at the table (who was recently married, and thus no kids yet) said, oh we have the same FHE activity every week because we have to make a family before we can do anything else. Alanna said about half of the women there had these horrified looks. I laughed super hard at the story, and we became good friends with the young couple.
ReplyDelete"He is your beloved Heavenly Father who seeks your good, your happiness. He desires with all the love of a perfect and pure Father that you reach your supernal destination. The map is available to all. It gives explicit directions of what to do and where to go to everyone who is striving to come unto Christ and stand as a witness of God at all times and in all things, and in all places. All you have to do is trust your Heavenly Father. Trust Him enough to follow His plan." Elder Uchtdorf
ReplyDeleteBrother Anderson quoted President Monson, 'If you are concerned about providing financially for a wife and family, may I assure you that there is no shame in a couple having to scrimp and save. It is generally during these challenging times that you will grow closer together as you learn to sacrifice and to make difficult decisions.'"
ReplyDeleteThat one really stuck out to David. Not because of the child bearing thing (funny how you can get so many different personal revelations out of comment/scripture that is meant for something else) but because of personal decisions we are having to make right now in our family. Anyways, thought I would share.....love you both!